Airing my dirty laundry

I found it so very hard to publish yesterday’s post. All morning, I’ve been checking to see how many people have seen it and if anyone has liked it. I can’t even bear to click on it and re-read it.

It’s a very intimate fantasy, and here I am sharing it with the world! Am I crazy?

I don’t think so.

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Airing my dirty laundry

The thing that makes it kind of excruciating to share are some of the kinky details which I feel really ashamed about. I don’t want to feel that way: I’m working towards shifting the shame. I’m a believer that airing it helps, so here I am giving my shame some fresh air:

Dear World,

My name is Ruby and I want to share with you that I’m mortifyingly ashamed that latex gloves make me so hot. 

I’m really embarrassed to admit that medical play turns me on.

I’m ashamed that I so want to be the centre of attention, with two people focusing solely on me.

x

Phew. I think I have some old and deep-rooted beliefs that I don’t deserve to get what I want; that it’s selfish to say what I want: that’s it’s selfish and arrogant to be the centre of attention.

I really hope that sharing these things might bring some ease and help me to accept my own kinks for what they are.

I can’t change them after all.

Ruby x

2 thoughts on “Airing my dirty laundry

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  1. There is no need for shame! I hope you get to experience your fantasies with a loving and caring partner(s). We can’t control what we find exciting. But your kinks are the same as countless others. We all have kinks that are not common and yet we share them with many others. So you are not alone. I’m certain that some readers of your blog share some or all of your kinks. They may not comment but they are reading and enjoying your posts.

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