My sex life has been entirely non existent for 6 months. I have no explanation whatsoever for this. I’ve obviously kept things chugging along with a good, regular dose of masturbation and fantasy. And although I have occasionally longed for companionship, I haven’t really wanted to be in relationship with anyone. I did try once but it quickly fell flat.
Then last week something shifted. On the day of the powerful full moon, I decided it was time to put myself out there again. I felt ready to turn my face and my thoughts outward and engage with another human being in a sexual way.
All the usual dating sites are so tedious. The same old faces… swipe left, swipe left, you’re the fucker who I wrote a brilliant message and never replied… swipe left… you wrote me a brilliant message and I feel bad that I never replied….. swipe left…. eek I dated you, you trod on my heart and now you’re dating my best friend…. swipe left….swipe left…and so on and so on.
So I reached out to a relatively new kinky dating app and a few old connections and I now find my week ahead brightened with the prospect of flirty messages and a sprinkling of dates. It feels good- like the sunshine is back in my life.
First of all there was a phone date with my long time American friend (see “Basic numeracy”) who had me cumming hard after following his teasing instructions.
Later today, I’m meeting a very nice young man who I’ve been friends with for a while. I’ve seen him dominate his partner at kink events many times. And then I noticed that he has a side-interest in being dominated as well as being polyamorous. So I find myself drawn once again into the world of gentle Femdomme. I’ll write more about this in another post soon.
There’s also Michael who has a fantastically sadistic and playful mind, who gives excellent cuddles and with whom I enjoy a really nice connection. At his request, I’ve sent him a photo of the toys that I’d be happy for him to use when he comes round for a play-date next weekend. Wanna see?
I still don’t think I’m ready to meet someone to bring into my life fully, but it feels damned good to be reaching out and making kinky connections. There’s even some new lingerie on the way to my letter box. I’m back, and I’ll keep you posted 🙂